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Long dream under the cut

Dire and I were in this semi-wooded area near a little longhouse with, like, paper shoji windows (There were some little Nidoran-looking critters that lived in it who Didn’t Like Him At All, I guess because he was a monster?) and somehow I suddenly got to make a wish and after thinking about how to phrase what I wanted I used it to make Dire capable of getting big enough to enter space and go to other planets, and I remember explicitly saying that it was so he and I could go planet-hopping together so I also added this thing where he could keep me alive while we were between planets by balling his hands up and keeping little pockets of air in them

So he climbs up to the roof of the longhouse and starts changing, and I was in it at the time and I could hear the roof creaking and shifting under the weight because he was getting bigger really fast and after a few minutes I ran out and climbed up next to him and crawled onto his hand and pretty soon after we got going

I very vividly remember everything getting dark as his hand curled around me, and how warm his palm was

And then he kind of just… Stepped off of Earth and went wandering for a bit until he found a rocky planet that had air and put me down on it, and I explored for a while until I got bored because this planet only had plants on it, all of the animals had gone extinct so it was pretty and safe but also super quiet and empty feeling

So after a while I went back to him and he picked me up and we left and repeated that with a few other planets until I noticed he was turning kind of reddish-purplish around the edges and getting smaller and that was when he told me that when he first changed he learned that he had to pick either methane or hydrogen gas to sustain his body with and he picked methane because he thought hydrogen only gathered in big amounts around gas giants, except then he was getting smaller and weaker because he was running out of methane so then we had to scour each planet we went to for methane until we found some for him to absorb and slowly built him back up

The dream ended kind of shortly after that because he was fixed and
once he was okay

we just left and kept exploring new planets forever

I’m writing this vore fic where I use my own name and shamelessly ship myself with my partner and I actually do intend to post it to Weasyl once it’s done, hopefully tomorrow or early Wednesday since it’s Valentine-themed

But thinking about it keeps reminding me how embarrassing and gratuitous it is and how I’m probably the only person who would care about the details that I’m putting in it

And I mean he’s my fucking partner so I have every right to draw and write stuff about us being together but my kneejerk reaction is still extreme embarrassment

Another dream I had was that I was an Inkling in an ink battle but I was super underleveled and poorly equipped and I kept running into this one enemy player who had way better gear than me and whenever I tried to spray ink at her I started moving really slowly and missing and I couldn’t get enough range or pressure to do any damage and she kept splatting me because of it

It was like a stereotypical bad dream where you’re trying to run and fight but you’re too slow and weak except in my case I was a squid who couldn’t ink

It was probably one of the most frustrating and viscerally upsetting dreams I’ve had in a long time just because of how powerless I felt

I had this dream a couple of nights ago about these towns that were connected by railways and you had to ride the trams to get anywhere and at some point the person I was “watching” in the dream (Because it didn’t feel like me) was confronted by this Grim Cowboy Family in another town who insulted them and made like they were in charge of their town and therefore better

It didn’t really go anywhere with it but it was weird

Fuck fuck god I had a project that I was planning to work on tonight but then I had an anxiety attack and fell out of my routine and now I’m scared and confused and panicky and I don’t know what to do or when to do it